The last post was all about Toby starting daycare and about how I was going to cope working full time. For the first three days Toby cried on and off all day, so did I! It was so hard. My heart would break when I rang the centre and heard him crying in the back ground. I knew it was going to be tough but as Jay and I were finding out, it was so much harder than we both ever expected. I had only been back at work two days and I was questioning the decision. Were we doing the right thing? Am I harming my son? Will Toby regress? So many questions floating around in my head and I was constantly beating myself up and I felt so guilty. And this was only after two days!
Monday morning of the second week came around. I called the daycare at 12 to see how Toby was going and expected to hear crying, but I didn't! They said he was going really well, yay! I went to pick him up and he cried when he saw me, but that was it. He had a great day. Much more settled than the previous two days! A week into and Toby stopped crying when I arrived, he just gave big smiles! Of course, if I didn't pick him up within the first 30 seconds then there would be tears!
Toby has attached himself to the carers, who give him lots of hugs and kisses. (I spy on them before going into the room) I can see that they genuinely care for my son and enjoy looking after him. They take him to different rooms to show him off and everyone in the centre knows him by name and continually tells me what a beautiful boy I have. I am so glad he is getting love and attention from these amazing child care workers.
Now we are 5 weeks in and Toby is loving it! He has a little whinge when he is dropped off, but that's all. He loves watching the kids play, they all know him by name and involve him in the games, singing and other activities. It's so good for him socially. He eats well and sleeps well. At home he is still a very happy boy who hasn't regressed. He still babbles, plays and has even started clapping!
After I pick him up he is attached to me for the rest of the night. That's ok, cause I'm attached to him! I love our cuddles and just being with each other, just me and him. We play, read, sing and just talk. It's precious time that I cherish. I almost don't want him to go to bed!
My beautiful boy
Jay and I have settled into the daily routine pretty well. As I said previously, I'm enjoying my job. Some days it's very hard. One Monday morning I went to work with only 3 hours of broken sleep. It's amazing what you can do on such little sleep!! I'm tired all day, everyday. But this is my life, this is what I have to do so I might as well get on with it!
I'm so thankful for a supportive team at work. They know who they are! Thank you! And also an awesome husband who helps out so much in many areas. He even gets up to Toby through the night, I am blessed.
I now know that we have done the right thing. My son is fine, I'm enjoying work and we are building a house and future for our family. We are doing what is right for us. Life is good. Life is very good. Slowly we will reach all our goals, one day at a time!
